mmm hi i'm at melea's apt.

cannot get free internet access unless at home and melea or ana at home at same time and remember to ask to use, or if get up early enough to see john at cafe and get free using of internet. and lately neither or none or whatever of those things has occurred. am i spelling well?

i may or may not have had several drinks at the paradise lounge this evening.

wknd was beautiful and painful. and beautiful. and painful. i wrote about it but it's not for you right now.

and also i did two brave things, talking to the two pretty boys who i would like to french, aside from x, and the verdict is: no.

but that's fine. because i'm brave enough anyway to have spoken of it. and that's beautiful.

and also i'd just like to remind x that he brought so much of this beauty out, this beauty i never ever saw or never ever admitted, and that i am quite grateful for it. he inspires beauty.

and now k has a new wardrobe and i hope she loves it as much as i do. and also it was beautiful and i loved it, spending time and things with her this past wknd.

also, admittedly, i cried a lot this past wknd, but i'm thinking about it and i'm realizing some things and writing some things and if you are x or k and they at all apply to you, feel free to inquire. otherwise i will let you know as i see fit.

thank you for your time and attention.

love, v