ummm ick.

i kinda don't know 'bout this apartment now, cause the jerks now want me to give them double the security deposit due to my shit-ass-awful rental history, for which i don't really blame them, but jesus the guy told me it was ok and we signed a fucking lease and everything and now he's changed his mind ? what the fuck ?

i just want to be good and not fuck everything up anymore, and i thought i was getting there. the bank let me have an atm card again because my acct was in good standing for a long time, and i pay my therapist and that shit's 'spensive, and i bought a car and i don't blow my money anymore and i just need a goddamn place to live but i apparently can't prove to anyone that i'm a worthwhile person who deserves a place to live, because i have shitty credit. which is my fault, but i've grown up, damn it.

and the speedometer / odometer on my car just stopped working last night so i gotta drive all crazy / blind.

and the coot burn is back ! motherfucking ! shit !

but i'm sure everything'll work out just fine. i just don't know when that'll happen.